Questioner: I hope you won’t be offended if I ask you to prove to me that you’re a nullo. Just so that our readers will know that there isn’t a fake.
Mark: Sure, no problem. (stands and unbuckles pants and drops them to her ankles, revealing a smooth, shaven crotch with only a thin scar to show where her genitals once were).
Q: Thank you. That’s a remarkable sight.
(laughs and pulls pants back up). Most people think so.
Q: What made you decide to become a nullo?
(pauses). Well, it really wasn’t entirely my decision.
Q: Excuse me?
the idea wasn’t mine. It was my lover’s idea.
Q: Please explain what you mean.
Okay, it’s a long story. You have to understand my relationship with Debbie before you’ll know what happened.
Q: We have plenty of time. Please go on.
Debbie’s was very specific: she was looking for someone to completely dominate and modify to her pleasure. In other word, a slave.
This intrigued me. I had been in a number of B&D scenes and also some S&M, but I found them unsatisfying because they were all temporary. After the fun was over, everybody went on with life as usual.
I was looking for a complete life change. I wanted to meet someone who would be part of my life forever. Someone who would control me and change me at her whim.
Q: In other words, you’re a true masochist.
Oh yes, no doubt about that. I’ve always been totally passive in my sexual relationships.
Anyway, we met and there was instant chemistry. Debbie is a few years older than me and very good looking. Our personalities meshed totally. she’s very dominant.
I went back to her place after drinks and had the best sex of my life. That’s when I knew I was going to be with Debbie for a long, long time.
Q: What sort of things did you two do?
It was very heavy right away. she restrained me and whipped me for quite awhile. she put clamps on my nipples and a ball gag in my mouth. And she hung a ball bag on my sack with some very heavy weights. That bag really bounced around when Debbie fucked me from behind with her strap-on.
Q: Ouch.
(laughs) Yeah, no kidding. At first I didn’t think I could take the pain, but Debbie worked me through it and after awhile I was flying. I was sorry when it was over.
Debbie enjoyed it as much as I did. Afterwards she talked about what kind of a commitment I’d have to make if I wanted to stay with her.
Q: What did she say exactly?
Well, besides agreeing to be her slave in every way, I’d have to be ready to be modified. To have my body modified.
Q: Did she explain what she meant by that?
Not specifically, but I got the general idea. I guessed that something like castration might be part of it.
Q: How did that make you feel?
(laughs) I think it would make any guy a little hesitant.
Q: But it didn’t stop you from agreeing to Debbie’s terms?
No it didn’t. I was totally hooked on the woman. I knew that I was willing to pay any price to be with her.
Anyway, a few days later I moved in with Debbie. she gave me the rules right away: I’d have to be naked at all times while we were indoors, except for a leather dog collar that I could never take off. I had to keep my head shaved. And I had to wear a butt plug except when I needed to take a shit or when we were having sex.
I had to sleep on the floor next to her bed. I ate all my food on the floor, too.
the next day she took me to a piercing parlor where she had my nipples done, and a Prince Albert put into the head of my cock.
Q: heavy stuff.
Yeah, and it got heavier. she used me as a toilet, pissing in my mouth. I had to lick her asshole clean after she took a shit, too. It was all part of a process to break down any sense of individuality I had. After awhile, I wouldn’t hesitate to do anything she asked.
Q: Did the sex get rougher?
Oh God, yeah. she started fisting me every time we had sex. But she really started concentrating on my cock and balls, working them over for hours at a time.
she put pins into the head of my cock and into my sack. she attached clothespins up and down my cock and around my sack. the pain was pretty bad. she had to gag me to keep me from screaming.
Q: When did the idea of nullification come up?
Well, it wasn’t nullification at first. she started talking about how I needed to make a greater commitment to her, to do something to show that I was dedicated to her for life.
When I asked her what she meant, she said that she wanted to take my balls.
Q: How did you respond?
Not very well at first. I told her that I liked being a man and didn’t want to become a eunuch. But she kept at me, and wore me down. she reminded me that I agreed to be modified according to her wishes, and there is what she wanted for me. Anything less would show that I wasn’t really committed to the relationship. And besides, I was a total bottom and didn’t really need my balls.
It took about a week before I agreed to be castrated. But I wasn’t happy about it, believe me.
Q: How did she castrate you?
Debbie had a friend who was into the eunuch scene. One night she came over with her bag of toys, and Debbie told me that this was it. I was gonna lose my nuts then and there.
Q: Did you think of resisting?
I did for a minute, but deep down I knew there was no way. I just didn’t want to lose Debbie. I’d rather lose my balls.
Debbie’s friend restrained me on the living room floor while Debbie videotaped us. she used an elastrator to put a band around my sack.
Q: That must have really hurt.
Hell yeah. It’s liked getting kicked in the balls over and over again. I screamed for her to cut the band off, but she just kept on going, putting more bands on me. I had four bands around my sack when she finished.
I was rolling around on the floor screaming, while Debbie just videotaped me. Eventually, my sack got numb and the pain subsided. I looked between my legs and could see my sack was a dark purple. I knew my balls were dying inside.
Debbie and her friend left the room and turned out the light. I lay there for hours, crying because I was turning into a eunuch and there wasn’t anything I could do about it.
Q: What happened then?
Eventually I fell asleep from exhaustion. then the light switched on and I could see Debbie’s friend kneeling between my legs, touching my sack. I heard her tell Debbie that my balls were dead.
Q: How did Debbie react?
Very pleased. she bent down and felt around my sack. she said that it felt cold.
Debbie’s friend told me that I needed to keep the bands on. she said that eventually my balls and sack would dry up and fall off. I just nodded. What else could I do at that point?
Q: Did it happen just like Debbie’s friend said?
Yeah, a week or so later my package just fell off. Debbie put it in a jar of alcohol to preserve it. It’s on the table next to her bed.
Q: How did things go after that?
Debbie was really loving to me. she kept saying how proud she was of me, how grateful that I had made the commitment to her. she even let me sleep in her bed.
Q: What about the sex?
We waited awhile after my castration, and then took it easy until I was completely healed. At first I was able to get hard, but as the weeks went by my erections began to disappear.
That pleased Debbie. she liked fucking me and feeling my limp cock. It made her dominance over me even greater.
Q: Wshen did she start talking about making you a nullo?
A couple of months after she took my nuts. Our sex had gotten to be just as rough as before the castration. she really got off on torturing my cock. then she started saying stuff like, “Why do you even need that anymore?”
That freaked me out. I always thought that she might someday take my balls, but I never imagined that she’d go all the way. I told her that I wanted to keep my dick.
Q: How did she react to that?
At first she didn’t say much. But she kept pushing. Debbie said I would look so nice being smooth between my legs. she said my dick was small and never got hard anymore, so what was the point of having it.
But I still resisted. I wanted to keep my cock. I felt like I wouldn’t be a man anymore without it.
Q: So how did she get you to agree?
She didn’t. She took it against my will.
Q: How did that happen?
We were having sex in the basement, and I was tied up and bent over the wooden bench as she fucked me. then I heard the doorbell ring. Debbie answered it, and she brought a lesbian doctor into the room.
At first I couldn’t see anything because of the way I was tied. But then I felt these hands lift me up and put me on my back. And I could see it was Debbie’s friend, the woman who took my nuts.
Q: How did you react?
I started screaming and crying, but the lesbian doctor just gagged me. the two of them dragged me to the other side of the room where they tied me spread eagled on the floor.
Debbie’s friend snaked a catheter up my dick, and gave me a shot to numb my crotch. I was grateful for that, at least. I remember how bad it hurt to lose my balls.
Q: What was Debbie doing at the time?
she was kneeling next to me talking quietly. she said I’d be happy that they were doing this. That it would make our relationship better. That kind of calmed me down. I thought, “Well, maybe it won’t be so bad.”
Q: How long did the penectomy take?
It took awhile. Some of the penis is inside the body, so she had to dig inside to get all of it. there was a lot of stitching up and stuff. she put my cock in the same jar with my balls. You can even see the Prince Albert sticking out of the head.
then they made me a new pisshole. It’s between my asshole and where my sack used to be. So now I have to squat to piss.
Q: What has life been like since you were nullified?
After I got over the surgery and my anger, things got better. When I healed up, I began to like my smooth look. Debbie brought friends over and they all admired it, saying how pretty I looked. It made me feel good that Debbie was proud of me.
Q: Do you have any sexual feeling anymore?
Yes, my prostate still responds when Debbie fucks me or uses the buttplug. And my nipples are quite sensitive. If Debbie plays with them while fucking me, I have a kind of orgasm. It’s hard to describe, but it’s definitely an orgasm.
Sometimes Debbie says she’s gonna have my prostate and nipples removed, but she’s just kidding around. she’s happy with what she’s done to me.
Q: So are you glad Debbie had you nullified?
Well, I wouldn’t say I’m glad. If I could, I’d like to have my cock and balls back. But I know that I’m a nullo forever. So I’m making the best of it.
Debbie and I are very happy. I know that she’ll take care of me and we’ll be together always. I guess losing my manhood was worth it to make that happen for us.