What she has not requested so far this year is penetration. Several times, she has had me keep my Holy Trainer on if I’m wearing one. Once when we got back from a night out, and my genitals were all taped up in my panties, she had me keep both on until she was completely finished. I know better than to ask to be inside her, but she clearly knows how badly I want to be inside her and how badly I want to beg for it. It just doesn’t make her happy, and she doesn’t want me to ejaculate inside her, since it makes a mess and diminishes her control over me.

I’m learning to deal with being so horny after giving her multiple orgasms and not being permitted one myself. I’ve stopped trying to sleep, and will get up to go do some quiet chores instead. Mopping, sweeping, and dusting are quiet and give me a leg up on the week’s cleaning. They take my mind off my selfish desperation.

True to her word, my orgasms have been limited. I have had 2 so far in the first four months of this year. One was into the toilet before bedtime, but the other was on our fun night out, when she had me use one of her vibrators on my taped-up genitals, over my panties. It was the most amazing orgasm of my entire life. She held me tightly and kissed me gently while I built up and up and up. She held her breasts to my face, and moved her leg under my head to cradle it. I have no idea how long it took. I only felt waves of growing tension as I desperately tried to increase the sensations, along with a little fear that she might snatch the vibrator away and leave me to cry myself to sleep. She let me keep it, though, and let me have that orgasm. Then I cried in her arms all the same, just for a different reason. I rolled over and fell asleep in my tape and panties. The next morning I woke up to her playing with herself, and she wouldn’t let me touch her. I could just watch.

So that’s the update. The Holy Trainer is still working well, but we have been talking about a metal cage. I will update you if we go that route.