Being in chastity for 24/7, and with my KH starting to insist or enforcing “permanent” chastity was what I wished for, even orgasm denial or restriction to once a month etc was on my wish list. Now that my “wishes” have come true, fantasy has become reality, and even a daily lifestyle… I find myself in deeper that “wished”, with any way out becoming less and less… not that I want out, but my KH dominance over my sexuality is becoming stronger than I ever imaged with:
1. My orgasms have to be earned, and criteria for earning release is ever increasing.
2. No more planned orgasms i.e. on a date… now becoming “as I wish” or ..”for my (her) pleasure or entertainment”.
3. Being told very clearly she does not want to go back to my “old” self, with the benefits of chastity in my attitude, attentiveness etc being her motivation for permanent enforced chastity.
4. PIV as much as she wants, but I am not allowed to orgasm without her permission.
5. Moving towards a genuine FLR/WLM, obedience, submission, domestic discipline, anal, etc at a much faster pace.
While I welcome all the changes and her enthusiasm for chastity, the future of potentially very few orgasms, permanent chastity 24/7 and a Wife Led Marriage, is somewhat daunting. We do talk about it, but her mind is set on moving forward. I find her confidence as a dominant woman very sexy and appealing, but the thought that I am entering a very different life, brought upon in parts by chastity, and the wonderful changes it brought to our marriage, remains a huge change.
She is deciding on my orgasms, when and even where… which is a bit scary, but she has already expressed it will not be before mid August, with her already pushing it out because of me displeasuring her on the weekend…
Reality I must say is harder than I imagined, permanent denial is tough, i am desperately horney, last night she edged me to near orgasm, and then having to cage “it” again is hard… I wished for this, in many ways for her to take control, now that she has I feel I cannot go back without loosing what we have and where our relationship is…
We talk alot about it, but it definately appears she is becoming very comfortable with her control, and denying me an orgasm she sees as pefectly normal in our FLR/D/s relationship, plus keeping me in permanent chastity, with the brief exception when she wishes to use me (PIV)… the rest is pleasure only for her, and yes she no longer feels guilty about it either, she happily enjoys multiple orgasms, which I am more than happy to provide, or even watch as she pleasures herself in front of me.
My wife and I completed a year of chastity with orgasms anywhere from 3 to 6 weeks. We learned that the first 3 weeks are the hardest for me. After that I could care less and enjoy edging over an orgasm. The year trial period ended in November 2014 and we sat down to decide if this would become our lifestyle. I was in favor or it as was my wife but she had one stipulation; permanent chastity and by that she meant getting a custom device and wearing it 24/7 to only be removed for health, hygiene and other valid reasons like fitting a new device. She says that she does not want to deny me orgasms but they will only be ruined orgasms.
I was not willing to commit to that right now and told her so. She said we can do another trial year. If I demand a full orgasm she will hand the keys back to me and give me an orgasm but will not do chastity anymore because she thinks it is a lot of extra work for her and she only enjoys it when I have gone at least 4 weeks. That is when I stop asking for an orgasm and get very pliable to her will. So I agreed to a full year without a regular orgasm. I am on month two since we made our new arrangement in early November. So far so good and I think I can do it as I really enjoy the constant arousal and long edging sessions. I do not even like me after I orgasm. I get depressed and cranky for almost a week. My wife avoids being in the same room as me and walks on egg shells.
So this is my new life. I am not worried because my wife is my Mistress, she is my loving wife and I know that if she senses I am in mental or physical duress she will make me cum but if not, she is dead set against full orgasms for me. However, even if I do the full year, I do not know that I would agree with her no more for life full orgasms.
I asked her “If I wanted to have this off right now and end this, what would you think”? She replied “I guess it would depend on why? If it’s because of medical reasons or due to your age it was becoming uncomfortable but you still would honor me, love me and treat me the same, then maybe yes I would agree to removing it. But if you wanted it off just because you were tired of it and wanted to go back to your old ways and jerking off, then no, it’s not coming off”.
Unless it’s for medical or ‘work” related reasons… The cage stays on. There have been times I wanted it off, it was uncomfortable I was irritable an I wanted out… She was stedfast. -….”NO, there is no way you are going back to your old ways – you committed to chastity and I’m holding you to it…
I feigned “injury” – she promptly inspected me, and then she savored the 3 strokes of the cane she administered for wasting her time (the cage stayed on)..