Which brings me to the current state of affairs. In brief, my wife hasn’t released me since she locked me up on September 13. As I write this on March 14, I have now been locked up in my cage for over six months, and I have no idea of when I will be released, if ever.

In the past, I wore my chastity device more or less all the time, but I was frequently released for bicycling, and she occasionally released me so she could shave my genitals and play with my penis. The longest I went between releases was probably three or four weeks. In comparison, I now haven’t been able to touch or even see my penis in over six months.

When my wife was still occasionally playing with my penis, my releases were always on Sunday afternoons. Now Sunday afternoons are reserved for me to service her. I perform cunnilingus on her while she plays with my testicles. Once I bring her to an orgasm, she rolls onto her side and I begin applying my tongue to her anus. When she finally tires of my attention, she will bring me right up to the edge of an orgasm before signaling the session is over. She also continues to play with me most nights before we sleep.

Since my September lockup, her treatment of my testicles has gotten even rougher. She usually doesn’t spend very much time gently stroking them. Instead, she pulls on them harder and sinks her fingernails deeper into my skin than ever before. When she reaches down with both hands, I know I am about to be put through a major workout. Some mornings, the skin around the back of my scrotal ring still burns from the treatment I received the night before. Although I sometimes jerk around and wince in pain while she is tormenting me, I’m always disappointed when she quits. I prefer rough treatment to being ignored sexually.

I have spent some time wondering why she appears to enjoy treating me so roughly when it seems so contrary to her nature. I don’t know if the rough play provides some sort of catharsis for her or if it serves as a means for achieving revenge for the frustrations and irritations I cause her. Perhaps she simply enjoys the control she experiences while I am grunting and struggling to pull away from her grasp. It has also occurred to me that she treats me roughly because she has learned from several years of experience that my genitals respond best to that kind of treatment. For one thing, the risk of an unintended orgasm seems to be considerably lower when the play is rough. In any case, she has become very skilled at playing with me for extended periods without causing an orgasm. If she gives me an orgasm, it is by design—there are no accidents.

During the past six months, she has given me four orgasms, and all four were ruined. Indeed, she has become an expert at producing ruined orgasms. She works me over until I am in an unstoppable frenzy, and then she pulls her hand away from my balls the exact moment before I begin to ejaculate—leaving my penis to twitch and spurt away from inside its steel cage. I don’t know if she has read anything about how unsatisfying and frustrating a ruined orgasm is for a man or if she actually thinks she is rewarding me with a pleasurable experience. I suspect she thinks of them as simply a way of emptying my balls without much concern for my pleasure.

My most memorable recent orgasm occurred on New Year’s Eve. When we went to bed after welcoming the new year, she treated my testicles rougher than usual. Using both hands, she dug her nails deep into my scrotum and pulled on my testicles so hard I thought she was trying to rip them off. When I ejaculated, it went all over the sheets and her nightgown, but it was ruined! I didn’t know if I should interpret the orgasm as a New Year’s gift or as an assertion of her control.

Last night, as we were sitting down for a couple of drinks before dinner, my wife and I got into another discussion about chastity. During the conversation, she stated that she was no longer going to be letting me out of my chastity device and she wouldn’t be giving me any more orgasms. She said that she had decided that this past fall because we always got along better when I was horny. I responded that we had been getting along better lately, but she quickly countered, “That’s because you are horny! If I give you an orgasm, you will go back to treating me like crap for the next two weeks!”

I was a bit stunned, and a mix of feelings flooded my mind. I felt a bit angry and resentful, but I also felt excited and full of love and respect for my beautiful wife. Meanwhile, my penis began struggling to become erect inside its cage. Later, while we watched some television, it was difficult to concentrate on the programs, and I didn’t sleep very well last night.

When we went to bed, she gently played with my balls while we continued to talk. I asked if she was serious about what she had said about not letting me out of my cage and giving me orgasms, and she said she was. I told her that I had been wondering if she had intended for the big blow job she gave me in July to serve as one last hurrah before my penis was permanently confined to its cage. She said that she hadn’t intended it that way initially, but that is how it had turned out. She explained that now I was able to wear my device indefinitely, our relationship was able to evolve to the next stage.