Last night my husband did something that I told him never to do again. He came to me and told me he needed a break from chastity. He said he was having a really hard day and really wanted to take a break from the cage. I felt sorry for him. He fell just shy of begging me to take it off. He told me it is too much and he wanted to feel free. And I considered it for a moment but then I realized that maybe he just needed to be held and talk him down. I explained to him that we can’t just take breaks from our commitments to one another. We can’t take a break from marriage either. I can’t just take a break from him when it gets difficult.

I held him and told him how much I love him and that while I know this is difficult him need to endure through the hard times, he needs to not give in to his desires. He told me he was starting to think I didn’t like him as a man. To that I assured him that the most manly thing he could do for me right now is work through these feelings. I told him that being locked up and denied, does not mean I don’t want him anymore. Quite the opposite, I WANT him and him being locked makes me want him that much more because he is giving me what I need.

After we talked for a while I think he understood my position. I love him dearly and that will never change and another thing that will not change is him being locked in chastity. In fact last night I figured it was best that he knew that we are headed down a certain path where if not permanent, his chastity will be nearly so. I need this from him, it makes me happy. I need him to stay chaste and that IS manly in my opinion. Giving so much of himself up for me.

This is the second time that he has broken down and the first since he got his new smaller cage and I expect it from time to time. This lifestyle is not easy on anyone truly committed to full time chastity. I know that this will not be the last time.

I know this is very trying for him and he would love nothing more to be free and be “normal” but aside from these two breakdowns everything has been great for both of us. We are so close and intimate and sex with him while locked is so beautiful. So sensual. I feel like a queen.