It’s been a while since I have been here, so I probably won’t know many of you now. Anyway, the reason for my leaving had more to do with my wife and I working though some tough choices and changes in our relationship then anything going on here. I was in and out of chastity for a number of years and would go long stretches without being permitted an orgasm, but it still felt like a game to us more then a lifestyle choice. This past fall was a really hard time for my wife for some reason, and it really exposed a lot of the flaws in our D/s lifestyle. Our D/s relationship started to Crack and crumble and was making both of us sad and upset.
On Jan 2nd we had an old school romantic night of sex like we had before choosing our new lifestyle. The next day while we both agreed it was wonderful, we also felt like it was in some ways a betrayal of the lifestyle we had chosen and to be honest the lifestyle that had saved our marriage and made us happier then we ever were. Over the next month or so we came to the realization that my behavior during that month had been horrendous. My wife told me she hoped I enjoyed my orgasm on 1/2 because it was going to be my last at least a for a very long time, maybe ever. To enforce this she demanded I be caged in my Watchful Mistress cage that has the security screw, and told me to order the punishment pins they offer. She said she not only didn’t want me to have an orgasm or get hard anymore, but wanted it to hurt when I did try to get hard. Hoping I would eventually learn sexual pleasure for me was over. That was almost 3 months ago. I am still climbing the walls but committed to her happiness. She has never ever been happier nor more satisfied then she is now. Hopefully things will keep just getting better.
I have only had 2 orgasms in that 4 year span anyway and I have not had an orgasm in over 2 years if my memory serves me correctly. I occasionally send a steamy message to my Wife/Mistress/Keyholder to inform her just how long my denial is becoming. I know it shouldn’t, but it makes me very aroused (to the point I leak) to discuss or write about my denial of orgasms in days, weeks, months and now YEARS. Generally it amuses her and she won’t hesitate to respond with something along the lines of, “Very nice. I hope you are happy in your predicament; I am glad you can count. You wanted this, you came up with this and I am perfectly happy for things to remain the way they are and progress as they are. This works nicely for me and I am quite satisfied emotionally and physically.”
It used to be days, and now it’s months and years. My PIV time is usually between zero and 10 seconds every year, with the longest time between PIV at 17 months. I figured out the other day it would take me 30 years to equal what my wife gets in 5 minutes from one of her friends. I’ve been pussy-free on anniversaries, birthdays, Valentine’s Day, and all other major holidays since before 2008, and haven’t seen her nude since August of 2011.