So instead of being my mistress’s sex toy I am her servant boy and although I will be teased with the hope of sex or play there is no physical teasing, just visual and verbal, occasionally I’ll get a spanking if she feels like it. Mistress prefers to only orgasm a couple to a few times a month and I’m now only allowed 1 every 3 weeks at the very earliest. I was quite unhappy about the way things we going for the longest time but then it’s like something switched in my head. This was also the same time as we agreed on my longer 3 + week lockups. The weird thing about this is that I’m actually content with where I’m at, yes I’m sad that mistress isn’t allowing me more sexual contact with her but it’s not what she wants. Mistress has me doing more chores and work than ever before on top of my full time job and I’ll I ever want to do is more for her and I love her for it. I don’t understand why I’ve had this change of feelings and how I’m finding her nonsexual desires and wants from me to be almost as enjoyable as the sexual wants and desires. Is this what being broken is? I’m frustrated as ever not getting the sexual play that I would like but her wants and needs are like an overpowering aphrodisiac that I just can’t help but want to please her and make her happy. I never really thought that the non sexual side of chastity could be a turn on for me but she has me wrapped up around her little finger and she’s knows I’ll do anything at the drop of a hat for her.

This is exactly what being broken is. My wife has taken away my manhood one day at a time in a dozen subtle ways, from making me pee sitting down to having me shave my entire body to forbidding me to touch my penis to pegging me whenever she pleases. This is the essence of our female-controlled marriage, which is what I’ve always wanted. She has made me so completely submissive that there is no need to cage me, but she still keeps me locked permanently. I needed to be broken and I am, totally.